Calling all the Walk Betweeners who have communed with us in the past 25 years. In 2012, the Northwoods Tribe of the Radical Faeries is celebrating all things silver, our Silver Jubilee year. Like starlight sparkling in our hearts, the fall RFD will feature our community. Join us as we reflect over our 25 years in RFD’s 2012 Fall issue. Perhaps you know us from Gathering, or an Urban Phase event, or online. We may be best known—by fae and fae-curious alike—thanks to the sumptuous coffee table book Faeries: Visions, Voices & Pretty Dresses (Aperture Books, 2000) by our own Klick, aka Keri Pickett. Winner of the 2000 Lambda Literary Award Best Fine Art Book, Faeries excerpts helped us spread our wings as a feature in Summer 2000 RFD. Look for new, never-seen Klick photos this Fall. And we’re yoo-hooing for your submissions of art, images, stories and connections. Please share memories and connections you have with Mother Kawashaway and the Northwoods Tribe. We are specifically looking for content about the first two gatherings in Gordon, Wisconsin, the first gathering at Kawashaway, and Spirit Gathering. Kawashaway-related submissions can be sent electronically to Phoenix & White Ash at RFD@ Kawashaway.org. If you’re sending big-assed files, please zip ‘em up and send via www.YouSendIt.com. Please send to us no later than June 30, 2012. Ads and non-Kawashaway-related submissions direct to submssions@rfdmag.org. Visit submissions. rfdmag.org for more info. “Yoohoo, 1999” Keri Pickett www.pickettphoto.com Issue 151 / Fall 2012 Call for Entries Kawashaway Sanctuary & The Northwoods Radical Faeries RFD 150 Summer 2012 1 Radiating Fecund Dick Vol 38 No 4 #150 Summer 2012 “Desire is a Horse that wants to bring you to Spirit.” W elcum to “Summertime...where the living’s sleazy...” to rephrase that great Jazz standard, with its slow Sax solo sounding desire to one’s core. Hearing those chords is sex magick to me, sounds creating an alchemical change in my body, causing fluids to flow, sparking my imagination and making my heart race. We are excited to present this scintillating issue of RFD, a survey of images, reflections, and recipes from a host of fey sex magicians willing to share their experiences in the realm of Sex/Magick. We are tickled to include collages created by Donald Engstrom, one of the founders of this dear qweer zine, for our cover and centerfold. We are also pleased to include Franklin Abbott’s interview with Cyrus Cassell, with a cache of his evocative poetry. We were delighted by the huge response to the Call for this issue, many thanks to ya’ll, apologies if we could not include all of what was submitted. I personally would like to dedicate this issue to the memories of Harry Hay, Baba Raul Canizares, ibae, and Gryphon Blackswan, all of whom have gifted me with so much concerning sex magick. Harry’s proposition that our sexuality is our window into consciousness echoes the teachings of OSHO, who noted that one could learn more about oneself through watching one’s sex life than any other aspect of one’s life. Harry once noted to me that his sexual desires never diminished as he aged (as he thought would happen), causing him to query: “What are we really looking for through our sexual desires?” His Sex Magick/Daisy Chain Workshop became his recipe for us to use in our own search for that answer in our lives, personally and communally. Baba Raul taught me not only to open to my abil- ity for aspecting ancestors, but also connected me to the magickal lineage organized by Aleister Crowley. While in Spirit, he exhorted me to create the “PAN chant,” which opens ‘Uncle Al’s” Book of Magick. Pan is the God of the wilds (as Harry pointed out), places not touched by humans. The places where qweers have long sought sexual refuge, spiritually feeding eat other with our seed. Invoking Pan allows us to accept the wilds within, those irrational drives that lead us...well, dear reader, I am sure have your own stories to tell and we’ve included a few from our fellow feys. Accepting the Pan within is essential for a healthy attitude toward Mother Earth. Those who are sexually generous tend to be ecologically minded. Gryphon Blackswan died from AIDS in 1996. He was a member of the Circle of Loving Companions, graduates of Harry’s sex magick workshops. He con- tinues to speak to me (see pg. 37) from the realm of Spirit. The continued reality of HIV (transmission) in our community makes it necessary for us to ad- dress this phenomenon within this issue. All of this is to show that in the great cycle of life, we continue to experience the ancient mythic dance between Eros and Thanatos. These relationships are markers of the lineage we are developing within our community, as most learning in this realm is conveyed through one-on- one mentorships in an oral tradition not dissimilar to how Tantra entered Tibet from India. Words are a form of magick. So is sex. Mixing them alchemi- cally requires a strong container, as erotic power breaks us open in ways that are profoundly ecstatic, and can be dangerous to our bodies and psyches. Desire is a particularly idiosyncratic mechanism in our lives. It is my belief that there are as many sexualities as there are individuals. What are you going to do with your sexual desires this Summer? This Lifetime? May this issue offer some perspec- tives to consider, something for your erotic tool box, some sparks to ignite your fluids. Go ahead—touch yourself right now & feel the burn! May your sex life be magickal! Happy Summer! —Rosie Delicious for the RFD Collective. Between the Loins2 RFD is a reader-written journal for gay people which focuses on country living and encourages alternative lifestyles. We foster community building and network- ing, explore the diverse expressions of our sexuality, care for the environment, Radical Faerie consciousness, and nature-centered spirituality, and share experiences of our lives. RFD is produced by volunteers. We welcome your participation. The business and general production are coordinated by a collective. Features and entire issues are prepared by different groups in various places. RFD (ISSN# 0149-709X) is published quarterly for $25 a year by RFD Press, P.O. Box 302, Hadley MA 01035-0302. Postmaster: Send address changes to RFD, P.O. Box 302, Hadley MA 01035-0302 Non-profit tax exempt #62- 1723644, a function of RFD Press with office of registra- tion at 231 Ten Penny Rd., Woodbury, TN 37190. RFD Cover Price: $9.95. A regular subscription is the least expensive way to receive it four times a year. Copyright © 2012 RFD Press. The records required by Title 18 U.S.D. Section 2257 and associated with respect to this magazine (and all graphic material associated therewith on which this label appears) are kept by the custodian of records at the following location: RFD Press, 85 N Main St, Ste 200, White River Junction, VT 05001. Mail for our Brothers Behind Bars project should be sent to P.O. Box 68, Liberty TN 37095. On the Covers Front & Back : Donald Engstrom-Reese Inside Front : “Yoohoo! 1996” by Keri Pickett. www.pickettphoto.com . Inside Back : Production Bambi Gauthier, Managing Editor Guest Editor: Rosie Delicious Matt Bucy, Art Director Paul Wirhun, Editor Jason Schneider, Editor Myrlin, Prison Pages Editor Submission Deadlines Fall–July 21, 2012 Winter–October 21, 2012 See inside covers for themes and specifics. Installation “Wildflowers of Manitoba” by Noam Gonick and Luis Jacob For advertising, subscriptions, back issues and other information visit www.rfdmag.org Artists in this Issue artboydancing ..................6, 23, 28, 39, 51 Arun . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .48 Ben Wu ....................................11 DhamiBoo...............................26, 27 Donald Engstrom-Reese . . . . . . . . . . . . . Centerfold John Brennan (Keystone) ....................30 Kwai Lam....................................9 Kyle Devries ................................21 Mark Hufstetler..........................34, 36 Mitcho .....................................19 Murray Edelman ............................59 Noam Gonick & Luis Jacob ............2, 54, 55 Peter Davison............................52, 53 Rachel Eliza Griffiths ........................45 Rosie Delicious..............................56 Wave.......................................37 Zac Bloom..................................13 Omission The cover of Issue 149 was shot by John O’Leary. Apologies for not crediting you, John! RFD 150 Summer 2012 3 CONTENTS Letters & Announcements ....................... . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 5 Stories & Articles Rites of Seduction .............................Ben Wu ........................10 How Sex Magick Found Me .....................Ed Ehrgott .....................12 Mystic Sex Does Not Require Genitals ...........Blaise ..........................14 Your Golden Phallus and You! ...................Bruce P. Grether ................17 Communal Cock-Worship as a Spiritual Practice ..Don Shewey ....................18 The Annual Imbolc Circle Jerk ..................Zac Benfield ....................21 I Fuck to Cum .................................Oberyn Kunning ................22 When All Else Fails, Try a Happy Ending .........DhamiBoo .....................25 Daring to Make Magick ........................Chas Nol .......................29 Children in the Invisible World. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Jonathan Mack ..................31 In Search of Intimacy & Self Affirmation: Episodes from a Sexual Autobiography ........Honeybear tHistledown. . . . . . . . . . 34 A Disclosure Disclosure ........................middle .........................38 Barebacking: Neither Sacred Nor Sinful ..........Aaron Stella (Gaff) ..............40 Heart Circle and the Making of We Were Here ....David Weissman ................42 Gryphon Blackswan Speaks .....................Rosie Delicious .................45 glitter: a film about Australian Radical Faeries. . . . . Peter Davison ...................52 Practicum ....................................Rosie Delicious .................56 BBB ..........................................Myrlin (Harry Vedder) ...........58 Poetry and Art Cyrus Cassells: Interview .......................Franklin Abbott .................46 Poems ........................................Cyrus Cassells ..................48 Blue. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Mercury Aquarius. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 51 Bodies Cavorting ..............................Raymond Luczak ................51 Wildflowers of Manitoba .......................Noam Gonick ..................544 RFD 150 Summer 2012 LETTERS & ANNOUNCEMENTS A Letter from Be Kudos on #148 Winter 2011! I love the new format and the latest issue was truly great. As I read each page I became increasingly ashamed that I had, once again, procrastinated too long to make a submission. I count my Faerie birthday as Aug. 1980—at the 2nd Annual Gathering of Radical Faeries in Pike National Forest near Denver—beautifully hosted by the Denver Faeries. I did not attend Short Mountain Sanctuary’s 1st Gathering in the fall of 1980, but I was there for the 1st Spring Gathering in 1981—the gathering when the tower fell. As with all memories, each one is subjective and while I would not dispute Franklin’s memory; I have a few recollections to add. When we gathered at the tower to take the group photo, Bric Miller and I climbed to the top and hung out on the upper platform (the photo in #148, p9 is a picture of the tower under construction) which was by then solid. When the lower platform gave way and dumped faeries to the ground, Bric and I were fine—the upper platform was intact and we climbed down safely. Unfortunately not everyone was fine. Pearlie Mae Sudds sustained a long gash which opened his leg (right, if I remember aright) from mid thigh to mid calf. The wound was not very deep and Pearlie closed it with a series of butterfly tabs made from adhesive tape and elected not to go to the hospital. The ambulance took away a young (late teens—early 20’s) deaf boy who had broken his arm in two places (not quite compound, but close); who had been ably and lovingly tended by Linda Luna—a nurse, crone witch. Linda served our Faerie Tribe with distinction until her death from cancer in 1995. Incidentally, the photo shows the pole for the bottom platform near the bottom of the picture. The platform itself was 9 ft. above the knoll, and one pole was down near what is now the driveway mak- ing the drop from there about 14 ft. It was that drop, of nearly 14 ft., which injured Pearlie and the deaf boy; not to mention numerous others with scrapes and bruises. I have long maintained that finding and identify- ing with the faeries brought a process of healing and integration to my life which deepens and improves with the passing years. I have an ever-growing ros- ter of dear friends and lovers—there, only because I dared to say “I’m a Faerie too”. I treasure the years I spent entering data, writing and proof-reading for RFD and I congratulate you all once again for the wonderful work you are doing. And a great big THANK YOU to Short Mountain Sanctuary! May it live on as long as there is a need for safety and compassion in the world. Love, Be Sex Magick Workshops The Sex Magick/Daisy Chain workshops were originated by Harry Hay in 1990 and have since been referred to by the shorter moniker: Sex Magick. They are seven days long and participants commit to being engaged and present for the entire time. Each one is limited to 15 participants with 2 or 3 facilitators. There is an entry level Sex Magick, nominally called “169” and an advanced workshop known as “269.” More advanced events are planned for the future starting in the spring of 2013 with a “269.” In addition to the workshop held at Wolf Creek in May, there are two more planned for 2012. Both entry level, the first one will be at a private farm near Kansas City, Missouri September 15-22 and the other one on November 9-16 at a large cabin outside Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada. For more information please visit www.faeriesex- magick.org. Radically Gay: The Life of Harry Hay Exhibition: April 21 - July 29, 2012 On the centennial anniversary of his birth, this exhibition celebrates the life and work of activist Harry Hay that laid the foundation for the modern U.S. lesbian and gay rights movement. The exhibi- tion also chronicles Hay’s life from his early years through his labor activism and involvement with the Communist Party before founding of the Mat- tachine Society and co-founding of the Radical Faeries. Jewett Gallery, Main Library, 100 Larkin St., San Francisco, CA RFD 150 Summer 2012 5 Radically Gay: Harry Hay September 27-30, 2012 Radically Gay The Life and Visionary Legacy of Harry Hay @ CCNY Grad Center & NYU For information and registration visit: web.gc.cuny.edu/clags Saturday, September 29, 7–9:30pm A Roll in the Hay A Celebration of Harry Hay hosted by the NYC (dis)Order of the Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence @ LGBT Center, 208 West 13th St. Sunday, September 30, 12–4 p.m. Community Heart Circle Carrying on Harry’s legacy/Queering our future facilitated by Rosie Delicious & Chas Nol @ LGBT Center, 208 West 13th St. Sponsored by: the Center for Lesbian and Gay Studies & the Harry Hay Centennial Committee FAEposium After a year’s hiatus, the cauldron is brewing again. This November 2012, FAEposium returns to inspire our community toward a higher vision of itself. The four day even, based on the classical Greek Symposium, is our opportunity to come together to share, learn, muse, discuss and create. What are the issues that affect our lives? What can we do as a community to effect change amongst ourselves and the larger world we are a part of? Let us come to- gether to have these very important conversations. Important? Yes. Overly serious? Come on, this is a Faerie gathering! Between the panel discussions, workshops and conversation will be ritual, feasting, laughing, languishing, cuddling dancing and stellar entertainment. This event is meant to be a sublime balance between the philosophical, the physical, and the spiritual and to give us the opportunity to share the vision, wisdom, and real-life tools to guide us into our collective future. To make a donation, submit a workshop or performance idea, or for more information about attending and volunteering, please visit out website: www.faeposium.org. With love and blessings, the FAEposium Planning Committee. Back Issue Sale! 20% off for Five or More www.rfdmag.org RFD 150 Summer 2012 7 Thrill with the lissome lust of the light, O man! My man! Come careering out of the night Of Pan! IΩ Pan! IΩ Pan! IΩ Pan! Come over the sea From Sicily and from Arcady! Roaming as Bacchus, with fauns and pards And nymphs and satyrs for thy guards, On a milk-white ass, come over the sea To me, to me, Come with Apollo in bridal dress (Shepherdess and pythoness) Come with Artemis, silken shod, And wash thy white thigh, beautifal God, In the moon of the woods, on the marble mount, The dimpled dawn of the amber fount! Dip the purple of passionate prayer In the crimson shrine, the scarlet snare, The soul that startles in eyes of blue To watch thy wantonness weeping through The tangled grove, the gnarled bole Of the living tree that is spirit and soul And body and brain—come over the sea, (IΩ Pan! IΩ Pan!) Devil or God, to me, to me, My man! My man! Come with trumpets sounding shrill Over the hill! Come with drums low muttering From the spring! Come with flute and come with pipe! Am I not ripe? I, who wait and writhe and wrestle With air that hath no boughs to nestle My body, weary of empty clasp, Strong as a lion and sharp as an asp - Come, O come! I am numb With the lonely lust of devildom. Thrust the sword through the galling fetter, All-devourer, all begetter; Give me the sign of the Open Eye, And the token erect of thorny thigh, And the word of madness and mystery, O Pan! IΩ Pan! IΩ Pan! IΩ Pan Pan! Pan Pan! Pan, I am a man: Do as thou wilt, as a great god can, O Pan! IΩ Pan! IΩ Pan! IΩ Pan Pan! I am awake In the grip of the snake. The eagle slashes with beak and claw; The Gods withdraw; The great beasts come, IΩ Pan! I am borne To death on the horn Of the Unicorn. I am Pan! IΩ Pan! IΩ Pan Pan! Pan! I am thy mate, I am thy man, Goat of thy flock, I am gold, I am god, Flesh to thy bone, flower to thy rod. With hoofs of steel I race on the rocks Through solstice stubborn to equinox. I rave; and I rape and I rip and I rend Everlasting, world without end, Mannikin, maiden, maenad, man, In the might of Pan. IΩ Pan! IΩ Pan Pan! Pan! IΩ Pan! Hymn To Pan Aleister Crowley, 1929 “Pan” by artboydancingNext >